October 5, 2020
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Mark 11:24
In my daily prayers, I thank God for blessings in my life, make requests that others have asked me to pray for, and ask for blessings and resolutions to situations that are near and dear to my heart. I try to pray in a way that is not manipulative, not asking in an attempt to get God to bless a situation or people in the way that I think would work out best for others or myself.
However, I often find myself asking over and over for the same thing. If I’m honest with myself, I feel the need to bring it back to God so that I can see the prayer answered in my timeframe (ASAP). I know this exhibits a lack of trust and a need for control. I pray that God will help me part with these personality traits. It’s very difficult for me to truly believe that I have already received the answer to my prayer because I do not see evidence of it in my daily life. With my knowledge of and belief in God, I wonder why it’s so difficult to break the pattern of continually taking this request back to Him. I pray for my faith to grow stronger so that I will leave my requests at the cross once and for all. I pray He will view my act as a full surrender to Him and His will. Since I have been praying specifically for His help and strength to break this pattern, I am seeing evidence of things He is doing to set in motion an answer to my most fervent prayer. I pray that God will grant me the ability and freedom to fully digest Mark’s words and believe with all my being that God has already given it to me and it is mine. Thank you, God, for the patience and love You have for all of us.